When Did We Forget Our Dreams?

The infinite possibilites each day holds should stagger the mind. The sheer number of experiences I could have is uncountable, breathtaking, and I'm sitting here refreshing my inbox. We live trapped in loops, reliving a few days over and over, and we envision only a handful of paths laid out ahead of us. We see the same things each day, we respond the same way, we think the same thoughts, each day a slight variation on the last, every moment smoothly following the gentle curves of the societal norms. We act like if we just get through today, tomorrow our dreams will come back to us.

And no, I don't have all the answers. I don't know how to jolt myself into seeing what each moment could become. But I do know one thing: the solution doesn't involve watering down my every little idea and creative impulse for the sake of some day easing my fit into a mold. It doesn't involve tempering my life to better fit someone's expectations. It doesn't involve constantly holding back for fear of shaking things up.

This is very important, so I want to say it as clearly as I can, if someone asks you to not post you something on the web for the fact that a future employer might read it....

I give a DAMN!

PS - This is not my work. This is from XKCD.com. The exact link is : http://xkcd.com/137/

Thanks!

Shardul

And the world goes BOOM!

Well 2012 is out in cinemas this week, and will be watching it as soon as my world gets free from assignments so that i can see the very destruction of it. :)

The movie is based on the notion that the world is going to end in 2012 as the Mayan calendar is going to end......wait a minute... i have heard this before...

is it similar to the story that computers will be useless after 31 december 1999 as the 2000 would cause too many undesired changes...

we survived that!

Anyways, I still like the idea that it would just take one day to destroy all we, and the mankind ;) have created in so many years...

Would update this after watching the movie...

In the mean time would also think for one such way the world can end....

may be when i get committed to someone :)

Ciaoz

Shardul

The straight line

I have not been a writer at any stage of my life. But slowly I have started realizing that there is a need for a virtual space for me to share what I feel about what is going around in this world, and what is going around in the life around me. So after killing my old blog, I have decided to start this new one to wipe the slate clean and share what I truly feel about things.

Let us discuss about the concept of the straight line. Everybody wants their life to be a straight line, knowing from where it came, and where it will go. Everybody wants to add a bit of predictability in the lives they live. Though there are very few successful people who have been able to achieve the same, but there is a way to achieve a not so perfect line in life.

In the world we live in today, specially if you are from India, everyone has a backpack full of expectations on their shoulders. All of us are expected to do some things in some certain way because people expect that from us. Your every action is scrutinized and people try to predict you future based on your actions. One of my friends was telling me about his past relationships and what he has learnt from them. He told me that once there was this girl who abandoned him just because she thought that he did not had any future. This is one classic example of expectations driving the life around us. Not to be biased towards my friend, but the girl wanted to predict where they would land up by just seeing where they are now. This is a totally false approach.

In the quarter of a century I have seen this world, I have noticed only one thing. As in the case above, people would judge you by what you are right now and not what you can be. It is a result oriented world out there and no one is willing to pay even a tiny bit of respect to how a person does his work. For me, it is the most important thing one should count their decisions on. If AR Rehman's teacher would have followed the same, he would have discarded him the very first time he had met him. If I have my facts right, he was not doing that good in music when he first went to his teacher. Luckily for us, his teacher considered the talent which was hidden within and focussed on nurturing the same and bringing it out.

I know you might be thinking where is this blog heading towards, i started off with predictability and then something about talent v/s results. Let me bring it in a straight line to you...

It is okay that people want to have predictability in their lives. It gives them the feeling of being in control of their lives and also of the lives of the people they influence. The only problem with that is people give chance to people who have proven something in life. This gives a bit of predictability in their lives. That is fine too... Just do not ignore the people who still have not got a chance to show what they are made of. If possible, try to be brave and give at least one person an opportunity. He might disappoint you at first (there is a good 50% chance of that happening), but the power your faith instills in him can make him break the shackles which have been holding him and then fly like a bird as if the sky was made for him...

PS - I know this post is a bit crappy, but I started out to write out something totally different... and may be one day I will find the courage to write it down.

To help yourself while helping others...

I have been in Los Angeles for nearly three months, with a complete roller coaster ride.

One thing that I have realized here is that if you spend your time worrying about small problems, the bigger problems get bigger.

Let me tell you an example....I must admit I have not made many friends in Los Angeles, especially in USC. But the few I have, came up to me with a problem. The issue was they tried to push their limits, which was good, but they got scared when the initial results did not match their expectations. They were talking w.r.t. the courses they have taken, while I was having the same problem, but it was applied to a bigger domain. I am also in the midst of things and most of them are not going the way I have planned them. I tried to extend my limits, challenged myself to give up a fairly comfortable life with a job in the hometown which paid me enough money for me to live a lavish life. I challenged myself to leave all that and come here, 1000s of miles away from my people to pursue MS.

Coming back to the original issue, my friends actually started doubting themselves for making the decisions they made. When they asked me the advice for the matter for which even i was seeking one, everything became clear to me in an instant.

The decisions we take are valid for a limited amount of time. This means they have their impact limited in the dimension of time. The common mistake everyone makes is to evaluate them when they matter. Decisions should only be evaluated when they do not matter at all. Small setbacks are a part of the game. They are like brick-wall. They are present to test how badly we want that thing, kind of a filter to select only the people who are ready to do anything to chase their dreams.

The only thing the words above are trying to say is this, everyone faces obstacles in achieving their goals. Only those who want it badly see it as a stepping stone.

Shardul

Recap :)

helloz....after a long time...
its been some time from my last post and the world has turned upside down in this period...

the last post was dedicated to my first week in US. now i am back here in a totally new place for a totally new purpose. Let me back up a few yards and pick up from where i left off...
So I was in Austin, for a client visit, and man did it go well. I got recognized for my work, had seniors talking about the quality of work...and what not. The original plan was as soon as I return to India, I would give GRE again and get a better score. That required for me to study hard when I was in US. Well one thing led to the other and then when I returned to India, it was more or less the same situation as the last time, with less preparation. But things eventually turned out good as I managed to score more than last time around...
Then office was going at its usual pace, I decided to take a plunge into the world of graduate school applications and all. Was lucky this time around, out of 10 applied, got admits from 6, was real happy but more confused...WHERE TO GO???
After a long discussion, I decided to come to USC. It was a old decision, as it was the most costliest university out of my admits and had a big reputation associated with it. But then overall it looked a standout option.

College -> Decided, Office -> ??? so had to put in my papers...after some thought and lots of planning I resigned on may 11th, making 10th july 2009 as my last working day at CSC. Exactly three years after I joined in 2006. Those two months were a total surprise package. I never knew I would come so close to somebody legally not available :). Two of my best friends decided to get married, one went into self imposed exile...and others...well all together busy in their worlds. But when the D day came, I came to know some good things about me, when at the farewell party all of my friends started telling me stuff which i do intentionally and unintentionally. Some of it was good, some...bad, but it was like talking to a mirror. Telling you things which even you were not sure about. But as all good things have to come to an end...I had to say them goodbye...and leave Indore for good. Guys, i will never forget the time i spent with you...and i promise, kabhi bhi mile to bhoolunga nahi.

So thats about it, I came to USC on 6th Aug. And life has again taken a sharp turn here....more about that in next post...and this one would be coming soon....

ciaoz...